I feel like I need to write about this. I’m supposed to be working but I’m struggling to concentrate and I just want to get it out.

My little sisters ex boyfriend committed suicide on Monday. He wouldn’t even have been 18 yet. This time last year my sister and him were together and he even came on holiday with us and he spent quite a lot of time at our house, and now he’s just not here anymore. I didn’t know him that well but for a time he was still part of our life and our familu and I just can not process the fact that he’s gone.

Its the fact that he did it himself. It’s so horrible and so violent and it is hurting so many people. My little sister is ill at the moment (not quite sure what but looks like it might be chronic fatigure syndrome) and she so did not need this. Its the worst news she could get and things are hard enough for her already. I love her so much and I just want to hug her and give her all my love, because this is just devastating news for everyone.

I can’t process the fact that this person I knew and spent time with is just gone. It’s so incredibly wrong. I found out by email yesterday when I was working in the office and I just burst into floods of tears straight away. Luckily Tim was there and came to comfort me and then took me home, but I just could not stop crying. It’s just so completely awful.

I think aswell because this is really my first experience of anyone I know dying. I don’t know how to grieve because I’ve never had to before. I just feel heavy and numb about it.

And its making me feel so guilty for ever trying to do the same thing when I was younger, because you just don’t realise how much it destroys everyone around you. I’m supposed to be teaching in his school on Wednesday and I’m just worried everyone there is going to be really affected by it.

Thankfully I’m going to stay with my little sister on Friday so at least then I’ll feel like I can show her love in real life. I just wish for everyone that this hadn’t happened. It’s such a waste of life and its heartbreaking.

I hope that wherever he is now he’ll be happier.

Managed to get on the pole today, but not feeling too inspired. Got some awful news yesterday thats left me feeling quite heavy. But still managed to get some solid handspring work in, and I’m trying to get my ayesha super splitty.

Managed to get on the pole today, but not feeling too inspired. Got some awful news yesterday thats left me feeling quite heavy. But still managed to get some solid handspring work in, and I’m trying to get my ayesha super splitty.

// 101 Ways to Love Your Body!//

lookpositive:

Body positivity is so important - it helps us love and respect ourselves for who we are, shows us that we don’t need to change, and gives us the resilience to combat any negativity which comes into our lives. I really noticed it myself when body positivity gave me the tools to recover from 5 years of mental illness, something which had previously seemed impossible.

While a lot of us know that it’s important to love ourselves, in practice every day for some people that can be quite difficult. While our workshops go a long way towards teaching people to accept their bodies the way they are, I very much recognise that not everyone is in the position to attend one, or would even feel comfortable doing so to begin with. Body positivity is a journey, and for a lot of people, that starts on their own, quietly beginning to learn that loving your body is okay - and could actually be the start of something beautiful.

And to that end, I decided to take all my knowledge and experience of body positivity, and create something that would enable people to learn to love their bodies and help them through the days where positivity feels the most difficult. 101 Ways to Love Your Body is a new book, A6 size and jam packed full of tips and tricks to help people embrace and accept their bodies just as they are. It doesn’t matter where you are on your journey to accepting your body, there’s something in here for everyone.

The book is great value, just £7.50 for a guide which could help you stay happy everyday. Want to buy it? All you have to do is go to our website http://www.lookpositive.co.uk/shop/ place an order and we’ll sent it straight to you!

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I hope lots of you will take advantage of this, because we’re here to help everyone learn to love themselves. Stay positive!


Introducing ‘101 Ways to Love Your Body’, the lookPositive mini-book! This A6 book is full of tips and tricks to help you learn to love your body and stay positive every day of the year. It’s spiral bound, meaning you can easily prop the book open on a desk or a coffee table as a constant reminder to love yourself, and with 101 tips, there’s plenty to get through. If you’re sick and tired of looking in the mirror and not being happy with what you see, embrace the tips in this book and you’ll see yourself accepting your body, just the way it is.

Its here! You can now buy my ‘101 Ways to Love Your Body' book on lookPositive's online store. Just £7.50, you get a book jam packed full of ways to feel good about yourself, tips to get you through difficult days, and lots of help to get you loving your body just the way it is. This beautiful book is perfect for gifts for friends, or a treat for yourself, so order today and be one of the first to read our new book! Order here: http://www.lookpositive.co.uk/shop/
For those of you who don’t know, lookPositive is my body image social enterprise which visits schools and the community to deliver workshops teaching people to learn to love their bodies just the way they are. If you want to support that, buy a copy of the book today, in the knowledge that you’ll be helping more people accept themselves the way they are!
Even if you can’t buy a copy right now, signal boosting this would be wonderful, as you never know who could benefit from it. Thank you!

Introducing ‘101 Ways to Love Your Body’, the lookPositive mini-book! This A6 book is full of tips and tricks to help you learn to love your body and stay positive every day of the year. It’s spiral bound, meaning you can easily prop the book open on a desk or a coffee table as a constant reminder to love yourself, and with 101 tips, there’s plenty to get through. If you’re sick and tired of looking in the mirror and not being happy with what you see, embrace the tips in this book and you’ll see yourself accepting your body, just the way it is.

Its here! You can now buy my ‘101 Ways to Love Your Body' book on lookPositive's online store. Just £7.50, you get a book jam packed full of ways to feel good about yourself, tips to get you through difficult days, and lots of help to get you loving your body just the way it is. This beautiful book is perfect for gifts for friends, or a treat for yourself, so order today and be one of the first to read our new book!
Order here: http://www.lookpositive.co.uk/shop/

For those of you who don’t know, lookPositive is my body image social enterprise which visits schools and the community to deliver workshops teaching people to learn to love their bodies just the way they are. If you want to support that, buy a copy of the book today, in the knowledge that you’ll be helping more people accept themselves the way they are!

Even if you can’t buy a copy right now, signal boosting this would be wonderful, as you never know who could benefit from it. Thank you!

I’ve been super busy since I got home, working on my body image business and doing web design work for a few clients, and on top of that renovating some land at the back of our house - so I only finally got time to do some pole yesterday.

I was expecting I might be a bit rubbish cause I haven’t trained properly since I sprained my arm, but I was baffled to discover that I could to these moves! Armpit grips have been mine nemesis for ages - while I went high up the levels for all pole moves, I remained woefully low on armpit grips, but yesterday I sucked it up and just went for it, and I did it!!

Still find teddy hard, as my bum swings out from in front of the pole and the grip goes all wrong, but super chuffed to have got these :)

// Back to Somerset today!//

spinninglovestory:

the-crane-dance:

spinninglovestory, up for more pole play dates soon?!

How long you back for? I hope soooo, I have a lot of Uni work to do but it’s a possibility, would you like to come to me this time? :) xo

Yeah that would be lovely! Im back for 5 weeks or so, minus 1 week when Im away working in Germany - hopefully we should find some time! Whens your easter holidays?

// Back to Somerset today!//

spinninglovestory, up for more pole play dates soon?!

Sneak preview for last nights performance - roller skating, pole and aerial hoop fusion! And it was so great to meet sariafenix too! Thanks so much for coming :)

Sneak preview for last nights performance - roller skating, pole and aerial hoop fusion! And it was so great to meet sariafenix too! Thanks so much for coming :)

Finally got my bomb drop! Normally I just grip and cant drop, but somehow cracked it yesterday :)

People who just lie about everything and have to have a story all the time no matter how outlandish it sounds, do my head in. Why can’t they just tell the truth? We like you as a person, there is no need to constantly embellish?!

I'm Lizzie, and I'm 21. You'll find lots of pole dancing and aerial arts here, baking and cooking yumminess, and body positive posts to do with my business lookPositive which teaches people to love their bodies in schools. (And maybe some things about my degree, but I prefer to pretend that's not happening)